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A couple of years ago, it would have been difficult for me to come up with even one reason why anyone should be thankful for PCOS. Polycystic ovaries, anovulation, amenorrhea, infertility, hair where it shouldn’t be, extra pounds where I wish they weren’t, blood sugar levels that spike with just the thought of a slice of birthday cake –these are just a few of the worries that plague PCOS sufferers.…
Now that my first miracle baby is 19 months old, and I am carrying my second miracle baby safely in my womb, I can look back on my experience with infertility and PCOS and see that there was, and still is, so much good to be found there.
I still have PCOS. The sting of unsuccessful fertility treatments and heartbreaking miscarriages is not lost on me. But I see every experience through different lenses now than I did before our first daughter.
PCOS has changed me in many ways. It has helped define who I am today. It has challenged me, humbled me, and changed me for the better.
PCOS has motivated me to take responsibility for my own health. Before my struggle with infertility began, and before I was diagnosed with PCOS, I ate what I wanted. I rarely exercised or gave much thought to taking care of my physical health. PCOS has changed the way I view food, exercise, my body, and my environment.
PCOS has taught me to appreciate and enjoy good, REAL food. It has taught me to view food as medicine and as fuel. This new perception makes food a friend rather than an enemy; something to be enjoyed rather than feared.
PCOS motivates me every day to model healthy habits for my daughters. Because I have PCOS, my daughters are at an increased risk for it as well. I pray daily over their fertility, and I practice healthy lifestyle choices with the hope that they will pick up on them early in life. I hope they will choose to go on bike rides or evening walks instead of sit on the sofa watching television. I hope they will view food as a thing of beauty and joy. I hope they will view their bodies as beautiful and worth taking care of.
PCOS has inspired me to get creative in the kitchen. Before my PCOS diagnosis I’d always hated cooking. I loved food but hated making it, which meant I ate out or ate processed foods far more often than I should. Now I enjoy spending time in the kitchen and hope to pass on to my daughters an appreciation for preparing wholesome, healthy, healing meals.
Without PCOS I never would have started blogging about my infertility journey. Infertility has brought much heartache into my life, but it has also brought even more joy. It has brought amazingly strong women into my world… People with whom I never would have connected were it not for PCOS. And I am tremendously thankful for these relationships.
PCOS has tested my faith on so many levels, and my God has come out on top every single time. He is bigger than any diagnosis, any disease, any statistic, and any fear. Through heartache He has performed miracles beyond anything that I could have ever asked or imagined.
My PCOS story is also a testimony of God’s grace and goodness, and that’s the best part of the story.